I wait for a call, a text, anything.
But nothing.
Nothing happens. Nothing has happened for a over a year.
There was that one chance a few months back, but no... it was a false alarm.
Finally realizing after so long a time that this “life” you thought was there.... has actually been dead for longer than you knew. It started dying off that day the friendship became a knife in the back and a sneer to the face. Sure they apologized... yeah they said they were sorry... but it never changed how they acted. You know that saying “actions speak louder than words”? I never knew that saying hurt so much and held so much truth in it. Having a best friendship end hurts like a family member dying. Except in some instances it’s worse. Because every time you see the person after that... you relive the pain a little bit each time.
They ask how you’ve been and you say, great! Because you have been... but you leave that conversation with them much less “great”.
They don’t have a clue how much they have hurt you. They don’t have a clue how much pain you went through to get the healing and strength that you have now... finally.
You start to see them in a different light... a light that isn’t filled with anger any more, but a light that has compassion and sympathy for them.
They have no idea the Hell they put you through. But somehow, with Gods help and the love of your family and the love of your true friends, you’ve been able to forgive them. You’ve been able to move on and see things from a different light. And you understand more, from that experience, how hard it is to love your enemy’s because.... you never thought that saying... would apply to what once was your best friend.
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